Random Blog #2
I don't know if it's just me, but I can't wrap my head around how fast life has been moving lately. It feels like just yesterday I was starting my junior year here, with no sense of how quick time would fly. Sure, it has been an amazing year, and probably my best here at USC, but I can't say I'm excited for it to end. I know summer will be awesome, but something about this year has really made me take a step back and appreciate everything I have right now. I know I still have one more victory lap instore for myself next year, but I really am going to miss being the dumb college kid I am right now.
Back at home, I have two little brothers, one is 9 and the other 12. It's pretty cool being able to watch them grow up before my eyes, and it really makes me think back to the good old days. I watch them play their sports, their video games, eat their homecooked food, and it reminds me of when I was that old without a worry in the world, so content with doing whatever my friends were up to. Its so cool being able to watch them do the same things as me, even making the same mistakes I used to. You know that saying all you want to do when your young is grow up, and all you want to do when you get older is go back in time, that's about where I am. I'm not saying if someone pulled up in a DeLorean right now, I'd hop in and go back a few years, but damn thinking about going back to being a kid is definitely tempting. No responsibilities, no finances, no real worries. It just feels like once you hit high school, you start to time travel a little anyways. Like how the hell am I only a year away from going out into the real world. Never to step foot in a class room again, unless its for my kids back to school night or something.
Its honestly all just crazy, and I know I'm lucky I still have one more year but at this rate, and from what I hear, next year is probably just gonna go even faster. After it's all over I still have no real idea of what I want do with my career, even though some days I think I'm on the right track. I would love to stay in the commercial real estate industry, but who knows (a problem for another day). Although nerve-racking, I know the next chapter of my life will have its own fun, and I'm excited for that. Finding a place to live, getting a desired salary, finding a best friend (dog), are all at the top of the list in terms of goals I have once I'm done here at school. And I can't lie all of those things do sound very exciting, but I guess what I'm saying is that I'm always going to miss being a kid. Although the end of a great chapter of life, as long as I'm the author of the next one, I'm sure it'll be just as great, in its own ways. As I wrap it up here, I just wanna say it's important to stay in the moment, and have fun. If your not having fun, do something different (not joking).
"Everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you’re climbing it."
Brenton, not to sound 80, but I find it impressive that at such a young age, you actually realize how fleeting life is and how quickly it passes by. The feelings you are having now, people generally don't have until they are far past their early 20s. You're right. Life moves very quickly, and I think the biggest disservice we do to ourselves is believing that somehow the next moment is more important than the one we are living now. I genuinely believe that this inability to recognize that all we have is the present moment is what ultimately leads to a waste of life. Enjoy the rest of this year and also the next! It's all any of us can do.
ReplyDeleteBrenton I couldnt agree more with you. I have been feeling the same way this year. Everything seems to be going by so fast no matter how much I try to stop it. I am happy that i do realize this as it allows me to take it in. The last thing I would want is to never take it all in.
ReplyDeleteThat part about hitting high school and time traveling really stood out to me. I think that's when we really start to see our parents less and the "rules" aren't as strict anymore. I can relate as well to the younger siblings. My brother just turned thirteen and will start high school in a year and a half. As someone about to graduate, take pauses and take it in. When you catch yourself reminiscing about what was and worrying about what could be, enjoy and appreciate the present. Today and right now is a gift.
ReplyDeleteHello, Brenton. As someone who is just getting started here in USC, reading this is making me feel as if time will fly by for me too! It is such a complex mix of emotions - on one hand, you are grateful for everything you've experienced here; on the other, you never want to leave. Preach to that! Also, as an older brother myself, seeing my two younger siblings go through the earlier stages of life is a full-circle moment. We have to appreciate every minute of every hour, that's what makes it all so special. Thank you for this!
ReplyDeleteHi Brenton, I completely agree, I feel like time has passed by so fast but when I think back to my freshman year, it feels like a different universe, like it never happened. All I would recommend is to not let yourself fall or focus on how fast time is going by because you will just miss all the moments that truly matter. Allow yourself to experience and try new things and create memories while living in the moment.
ReplyDeleteHey Brenton, even though this is my first semester here at USC I already know that my time here is going to fly by just like it has been going for you. I'm constantly stuck between wanting to get my degree over with to start making money and wishing the semester would slow down a bit. Maybe my sense of time is messed up due to the whole covid thing but it really blows my mind to think that this time 4 years ago I was entering my junior year of high school, starting to think about what colleges I'd be applying to.
ReplyDeleteBrenton, it is only my first semester here but I have to admit it flew by. Since I transferred however, I only have two years left, and will be in your current position next year. I am going to do my absolute best in taking in all the little things and not let my experience at USC pass me by.
ReplyDeleteBrenton, this comment is from Raph, who can't access the Blog Master in Japan: "Brenton, thank you for being so open about your thoughts. I think it is incredible that you have realised this reality at this age. Time and time again, elder people tell us how short life is, and I think this is the time when we start to realise it; it certainly makes us appreciate the present. Thank you again for sharing!"
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